这本书在讨论一件事——人类社会的联结，作者回顾历史，从前交通不发达，信息流通不发达，宗教通过自己的宗教经典和解释来吸收和影响，以及控制信众，到19世纪和20世纪，极权国家通过监督机制控制自己的人民，但到了21世纪，因为人工智能的流行，这种控制可能被AI掌控，人类甚至不自知自己在其掌控之下，以及，AI算法很难被解释和被正常人所理解，再加上以前存在应对极权的方式，因为极权一般只发生在一个城邦或一个国家，但AI可能会让极权变成全球化的，而且很难逆转。又或者，假如国家之前结成阵营，互相禁用敌对阵营的社交媒体软件和AI软件，硅幕可能会升起，人民各自活在各自的信息茧房里。
这是对巴厘岛旅游的记录。让我们慢慢述说。
我在这里待了8天，前5天和女朋友以及其他同行的小伙伴一起玩，后面几天自己solotrip，我恍然意识到这和我在杭州的状态差不多，无非是花时间去适应下当地的生活习惯，我做瑜伽或是逛逛公园，他们确实帮助我放松心灵，但我意识到，这总归是有限的。问题依然是来自内心。浑浊之眼在任何地方看到的都是迷惑，即使有外在治愈，但逃不出短暂的结局。所以我意识到——我应该做心灵的沉淀。那是一种我能意识到、观察到我在做什么，而非被他者、社交媒体、某些人或者某些环境影响我的表现。我承认人是社会和环境的产物，但这是一种广泛的结果，这并非意味着逆主流是不可行的。纳瓦尔说：人们的行为只是为了获得社会性认可，这和我们做猴子没有太大的区别。自我意识是人类进化的一个标志性里程碑，但现在我觉得自己正在丧失自我意识，我不得不做的是和社交媒体、色情做对抗。
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This month it rained a lot. It’s just like emotions, fulfilled by the rain but also damped and wrapped tightly by it. Of course, we saw sunshine sometimes. People in my hometown expect the good weather because dry lands make it possible collecting corns. All of them depend on the weather to live. We are similar. We depends on something in city, such as content consumers, personal consumers in supermarket or some businesses. All of them are unpredictable, even though personal endeavor plays a certain level role in it. A sentence in The Art Of War is “天时地利人和”, which orders these features. So don’t be too sad for current selves. You must be patient for good time.
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I’m reading Building a Second Brain, which suggests me write more instead of only reading as input. I have experienced the effect of writing something about two or three years ago. But this year I is almost writing something shallow. One of possible reasons is I am changing slowly that results me thinking not hard. I try my best to insist on the journaling habit. Another reason is I think writing is wasting my time that means I have another high-priority assignments, even though it’s just what seems like. So why don’t I write more? Don’t care what to do is the best. Don’t care the perfectionism. Just follow what I like to do. At least, I can feel good and I believe it’s absolute worthwhile in a long-term way.
| Field | Info |
|---|---|
| Name | Peak: Secrets from the New Science of Expertise |
| Author | K. Anders Ericsson, Robert Pool |
| Genres | Psychology, Self Help |
| Keywords | Deliberate Practice |
Actually, I heard a lot of people recommend this book. Also, I am preparing for my IELTS exam. So I want to find an effective way helps me master English, although now I find there are more dedicated way for IELTS that are better. Overall, I also recommend this book because you will have a chance to know how to master any skills through deliberate practice.
You don’t know how the right path should be, but you know the wrong.
Resigning the job is definitely the right decision. What is under the solitude is the fresh and new vigor. There is one period in this month in which due to I always being one person, I feel so lonely. Initially, I cannot live well with this state but I have learnt how to enjoy it now. Evenly, I find I have been reluctant to come back the previous lifestyle that the work seeps into your mind and seize it. The feeling of freedom is so wonderful! Confidence and engaging in learning brought me to the realization that I have the ability achieving my goal. Diving in what you are interested in will make your thought become the reality.
I know making a decision is always hard. Because we don’t know what will happen in the future. We love certainty. It’s acceptable if we consider this is a kind of not-bad lifestyle. However, reality is not matched with my current working state. So I have to change. I seek the call.
As I decided to commit my resignation in May 20th, work staff started to gradually decrease. I feel relaxed this month. I just finished work handover. I got a refreshed state that makes me energetic. It is like a dividing line before which I am busy and exhausted employee and after which I am a new person with empty background.
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我在去海南旅行的路上看完了这本书，去的路上看了一半，回来的路上看完了另外一半。这本书对我当前观念的转变非常大，我之前会为自己没有充分利用时间而感到痛苦，但现在我不会这样了，并不是说我变得懒散了（尽管看起来确实是这样），我认为自己不必再慌张了。我慢慢走，慢慢思考，这样就足够了。
13 June Place: HongKong Airport
I travel here. Today is Friday. I’m going to leave my job. My last day for work is 3rd July. I can feel that I am coming back natural life state. Yes, I reallllllllly think work is toxic.
I start to think about my personal possibility. I am very engaging in learning English which I think there are some reasons make my state recover. There are still some other reasons.
我再次经历这样的时刻，但是我并不觉得时间过得很快，因为每一天我都觉得有很多事值得记录，尤其当离职临近，我正准备迎接空闲的到来。
我翻了这个月的笔记，尤其在后面两周，因为空闲时间的增多，我明显地发现记录变多，我有意识地经历了更多东西，而非在工作时任凭时间流走，尽管我并不愿如此。