This month it rained a lot. It’s just like emotions, fulfilled by the rain but also damped and wrapped tightly by it. Of course, we saw sunshine sometimes. People in my hometown expect the good weather because dry lands make it possible collecting corns. All of them depend on the weather to live. We are similar. We depends on something in city, such as content consumers, personal consumers in supermarket or some businesses. All of them are unpredictable, even though personal endeavor plays a certain level role in it. A sentence in The Art Of War is “天时地利人和”, which orders these features. So don’t be too sad for current selves. You must be patient for good time.
I’m reading Building a Second Brain, which suggests me write more instead of only reading as input. I have experienced the effect of writing something about two or three years ago. But this year I is almost writing something shallow. One of possible reasons is I am changing slowly that results me thinking not hard. I try my best to insist on the journaling habit. Another reason is I think writing is wasting my time that means I have another high-priority assignments, even though it’s just what seems like. So why don’t I write more? Don’t care what to do is the best. Don’t care the perfectionism. Just follow what I like to do. At least, I can feel good and I believe it’s absolute worthwhile in a long-term way.
Actually, I heard a lot of people recommend this book. Also, I am preparing for my IELTS exam. So I want to find an effective way helps me master English, although now I find there are more dedicated way for IELTS that are better. Overall, I also recommend this book because you will have a chance to know how to master any skills through deliberate practice.
You don’t know how the right path should be, but you know the wrong.
Resigning the job is definitely the right decision. What is under the solitude is the fresh and new vigor. There is one period in this month in which due to I always being one person, I feel so lonely. Initially, I cannot live well with this state but I have learnt how to enjoy it now. Evenly, I find I have been reluctant to come back the previous lifestyle that the work seeps into your mind and seize it. The feeling of freedom is so wonderful! Confidence and engaging in learning brought me to the realization that I have the ability achieving my goal. Diving in what you are interested in will make your thought become the reality.
I know making a decision is always hard. Because we don’t know what will happen in the future. We love certainty. It’s acceptable if we consider this is a kind of not-bad lifestyle. However, reality is not matched with my current working state. So I have to change. I seek the call.
As I decided to commit my resignation in May 20th, work staff started to gradually decrease. I feel relaxed this month. I just finished work handover. I got a refreshed state that makes me energetic. It is like a dividing line before which I am busy and exhausted employee and after which I am a new person with empty background.
I travel here. Today is Friday. I’m going to leave my job. My last day for work is 3rd July. I can feel that I am coming back natural life state. Yes, I reallllllllly think work is toxic.
I start to think about my personal possibility. I am very engaging in learning English which I think there are some reasons make my state recover. There are still some other reasons.
Most of us recognize that our emotional state influence our behavior. When we are highly excited, we tend to challenge difficult goals. When we feel sad or mentally depleted, we may prefer to do nothing and even experience emotional pain. As a result, we often strive to maintain a positive state of mind. However, when I have free time, such as Sundays, I sometimes find myself uncertain about what I should do. I am aware that this may be considered a non-question, yet the dilemma persists: How should I use my free time?