Aug 2026 Reflection

Ok, let’s start.

We’re not always clear about our ability. As we overestimate our ability of finishing a goal, we also underestimate what we have done. I’m always thinking about what kind of people I am. Usually, my styles of doing is to build a plan at first, then I start to take an action. But sometimes I want to drift away my plan. I see myself as a taking-all-or-nothing people, and I think so most of people are. It’s really hard to say which doing style is right, because we always can find some examples representing each type of people. So far, my attitude is if we still haven’t figured out what we are really obsessed in, we should trust reasonable plans, though they are not always efficient, at least we can make sure they are effective. I see myself as normal people, and my only distinction with others is I like reflecting, like what i am doing now. by that, i can see my drawbacks continually.

I always maintain myself in a state of that i should do something. even though watching a movie, it is in a plan. So i lack of the happiness of meeting something new, out of my expectation. Once i leave my plan, i start to prone to instant gratification. I cannot really focus on what i am currently doing, even anything. Coming through so a long time, a quite effective approach for me is persuading myself that i cannot do a lot. So I won’t think too much. But, it stills needs practice.

What I have done

As I planned to leave Hangzhou this month, I didn’t do a lot. I just finished four paper books, and met some friends to have a dinner. Generally, I was just doing my farewell to this city I had lived for 4 years and my friends.

Four books I have red: 《查拉图斯特拉如是说》、《书店》、《消费社会》和《聪明的投资者》。

I just thought that I had spent too much time on social media, and I didn’t want to take back these paper books. So I red them completely. Actually, I had started to get some new ideas, which are all from reading these books.

1. Paper book is still better than e-ink book, and e-book. When reading a paper book, I can dive into this books more easily than other body book. A book is an independent identity. It will never be mixed with other books, which it is always common when reading books on a electrical device.
2. I need long context, rather than instant gratification from bullet tweets, and short videos. After getting a long context, I get a feeling of standing on the ground, rather than floating in the air. I re-own my attention.

I admit that most of my time this month is not cherished. People is the product of environment. If I want to change my behavior, I need to change my environment at first.

I guess that’s all I want to talk.